Q: After reading you're experience I have a couple of questions.

1) Why is it that you are so more special than most of us, how come and angel came to you? Why are you more favoured than others. Just because you are one of the annointed, why should you be more priveleged than even faithful bible witnesses of old, and marytre.

 2) Also those jewlery that you touched to see if it was the demonic problem has me quite puzzled. why could you know and not her. I am very senstive to that sort of  thing also, maybe that is the reason, but I still found that odd. I am not saying I dont believe you but I just find that you seem to be special and others not.

This is what really makes me feel like nothing, when the annointed go on about how special they are, it is all about them. At the district Assembly they gave a 30 min talk on the FDS and the GB on how Jehovah and Jesus approve of them, and do we, (waited for applause) and went on about themselves. I am so over this that it wrecks my faith. I love Jehovah, why are we second class no ones.
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A: I appreciate you taking the time to write. You raise some valid concerns.

First of all I would like to say that there is nothing that Jehovah has done for me in the way of blessings that he has not likewise done for everyone else who has built his life around "seeking first the kingdom." After all, isn't that what Jesus promised? (Matt. 6:33,34) I always believed that Jesus obligated his Father to fulfill that promise; and I can vouch that he has. Jehovah is the hearer of prayer! It's not just my prayers that he has answered. And the many times when he did, it did not make me feel "special," for I know that he listens to the prayers of all his people who listen to him. I was always glad to be counted among them. The whole point of posting my experiences is to demonstrate that Jehovah is real and that he truly cares for his people, each and everyone of us, actually getting involved in doing things on our behalf. (Something I especially wanted to share with my daughter-in-law.)

I don't believe that my experiences are that uncommon, and what Jehovah has done for me he has also done for many others, perhaps on an even larger scale. I suppose the big difference between those who have experienced Jehovah's blessings and those who haven't is the all-important ingredient of faith. If I may boast about one thing, Jehovah has been real to me from the beginning when, at the age of 16, I first came to know him with the help of the book "From Paradise Lost to Paradise Regained." (Published back in 1958 by the Watchtower Society.) I believed with all my heart that he was real and cared for us, as demonstrated by the many experiences recorded in the Bible. I deeply appreciated all the faithful men and women of old mentioned in that book, and wanted to be like them, imitating their faith.

The apostle Paul says that "faith is not a possession of all people." (2 Thess. 3:2) Those who are lacking in faith miss out. It's their loss! The Jews in Jesus' home territory did not exercise faith in Jesus, and so they missed out because "he did not do many powerful works there on account of their lack of faith." (Matt. 13:58) The one thing that we can offer to Jehovah, that is very personal and of great value, is our faith in him. In fact, we are told that "without faith it is impossible to please him well." (Heb. 11:6; Psalms 78:22) He takes notice when our faith is such that we entrust our very lives to him, and want to please him in everything we do; as was the case with the many faithful men and women of long ago, as listed by Paul in Hebrews chapter 11. They were blessed for their faith, and we should learn from them. I wanted to be like them, not like Adam. Do you perhaps feel that Jehovah is being partial when he takes special notice of someone's faith, and acts on behalf of the person on account of his faith? We can be like David, "a man agreeable to [Jehovah's] heart," by having faith like David. Abraham had such faith that he came to be known as "Jehovah's friend." (1 Sam. 13:13,14; 16:7, 11-13; 17:45-47; James 2:23) Wouldn't you like to be called that?

My faith in Jehovah and his promises was put to the test many times when I came to be heavily dependent on his help; but as already mentioned, I felt that Jesus had obligated our heavenly Father to care for our daily needs, as he promised us in Matthew 6:33, and I absolutely believed that promise. Otherwise, if Jehovah failed to provide, then Jesus would be proved a liar, which to me was impossible. I couldn't imagine that he would ever fail to care for anyone who was seeking first the kingdom. And Jehovah has always provided for us, sometimes in amazing ways! That does not mean that we never went hungry; but then, as if to make up for those times, there would be occasions when we would receive also an abundance. (Phil. 4:12) Usually it would be by finding suitable employment, and when that was not possible then he would find some other inventive means. We were never left in the lurch. Let me briefly share a couple of experiences that might help explain what I mean:

Newly married, my wife and I had moved to an area in Canada where there existed a small congregation that needed help in its vast territory. I found a job pumping gas at a service station that paid less than minimum wage; but we could get by on that on a strict budget. The second winter was especially harsh, and our heating bill (oil) and other costs added up quickly. On top of that, the annual car insurance and other unexpected expenses came due on the first day of the following week, which was the beginning of February. I had enough money to cover the usual expenses, but there was just no way that I could come up with all the rest that I needed in such a short time. (It amounted to at least two months wages.) I prayed to Jehovah and explained the situation, telling him how much I needed his help. He knew that I had not squandered any money. In desperation I spread out all the bills on the coffee table and asked him to look at them. I was willing to quit pioneering and take on another job if that was possible; but it seemed to be a one time problem in need of a one time solution. That was on a Tuesday. On Thursday I received a cheque (Canadian spelling) in the mail from a brother who was a Realtor. A couple of years earlier I had sent someone to him who wanted to sell their house, and he did sell it for them. Now, at this particular time he remembered me. The cheque had obviously already been in the mail when I had prayed for help. The following Sunday, after having enjoyed working with a brother in the field service, he told me that he had come into some money that he felt was from Jehovah, as he too was pioneering and needed help at this particular time. He said that he was aware that pioneers need help at this time of year and told me that Jehovah wanted him to use some of the money to help me too. Thus he asked me how much I needed in order to pay my bills. I thanked him for his kind offer, but declined to accept it, while praying silently. I said to Jehovah that if the offer is from you, and you certainly know how much I need, then you tell him. The brother invited us to stay for dinner, and before we left for home he handed me an envelope, saying, "this is from Jehovah." He had written me a cheque for the exact amount of what I still needed. On Monday I was able to pay off all the bills. This was not an isolated case where Jehovah knew exactly what we needed, and that he provided.

When we were pioneering (with my wife and son) in Greece, Jehovah helped us in many wonderful ways. Although I was not officially allowed to work, there was always some work that presented itself to help us get by, while Jehovah helped take care of the rest. When we attended an Assembly, for example, there was one brother who appreciated us having moved to Greece, and who would always be waiting to greet us, extending his hand and slipping an envelope into my hand that would contain enough drachmas to cover our traveling expenses to and back home from the Assembly. This one time, a few days before another Assembly, I was able to help harvest green olives by climbing up into the trees and beating the olives down with a long stick. In two days I had earned enough money to cover our expenses for the upcoming Assembly. Anticipating that the kind brother would be waiting with the usual envelope, I was discussing with my wife what we should do with that extra money, perhaps buy her a new dress. As usual, the brother again greeted us, but no envelope. How did he know that we had no need this time? We certainly never mentioned to anybody whether we were in need or not; only going to Jehovah with our concerns. Not receiving anything on this occasion proved just as encouraging as when we did receive and were in need. It was clear evidence of Jehovah's provision and care. He knows what we need, when, and how much.

Jehovah blesses all who trust in him and obey him; whether they are of the anointed or not. (Acts 10:34,35) At times Jehovah sees fit to use a certain individual for a particular purpose, and then he will enable the person to carry out the work he has given him to do, something the person would not otherwise be able to do on his own. (Phil. 2:13; 1 Cor. 1:26-29) That doesn't mean that Jehovah cares more for him than for others. In fact, it could well be that Jehovah chose the person for the benefit of others, who are really the ones Jehovah cares about. That is evident in that the person used by Jehovah is held accountable for how he discharges his obligation, as Jesus said, "Indeed, everyone to whom much was given, much will be demanded of him." (Luke 12:48)

I have repeatedly pointed out on my website that the anointed are not more important or more precious to Jehovah than are his sheep, the ones they have been entrusted with to feed. As Jesus explained, "For which one is greater, the one reclining at the table or the one ministering? Is it not the one reclining at the table?" Jesus was the one feeding God's sheep and ministering to them. (Luke 22:27) In the same way Jehovah has also appointed certain ones in the congregations to minister to his sheep and "keep giving them their measure of food supplies at the proper time." (Luke 12:42-44; Acts 20:28; 1 Peter 5:1-4) This certainly does not make them greater than the ones they are serving! If this has caused some, even of the anointed ministers, to become self-important then they have missed the purpose of their appointment and will render an account for themselves. (Would you want to eat in a restaurant where the Waiter treats the ones he is serving with contempt? Would that not spoil your appetite? Is his job not dependent on the customers?) If you have been led to believe that the anointed are somehow special and more important than the sheep which they are supposed to feed, then you have been misinformed. You certainly haven't learned that on my site.

Secondly, you also mentioned the jewelry in connection with my wife. Why did my wife not discern that the jewelry was causing her problems? Actually she did. She told me, after I had identified the item with Jehovah's help, that she was having headaches whenever she wore the locket, although she did not make the connection that her health problems were caused by demons. The piece of jewelry was given to her by another sister, the wife of an elder at that. And believe me, without Jehovah's help I would never have been able to identify the source of the problem. She went from a happy pioneer to a zombie in a short time, and recovered only after I disposed of the object.

Instead of being offended and have feelings of unworthiness, feelings of somehow being left out—my desire is that others will find encouragement from my experiences. These are by no means unique. They prove that Jehovah is still the same loving and caring God who looks after his people, like we read about in his word the Bible. He has not changed! (Rom. 15:4-6) But as already mentioned, not everyone in the past benefited from his blessings, and neither do all of his people today. Faith enables us to enjoy a personal relationship with Jehovah, which nothing can compare. Everyone can have faith! Having it does not depend on others. It's free, and no one can deprive us of it. And it never leads to disappointment. (Rom. 10:11) 

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